Thinking of the present moment is weird because it takes me into the past to compare something to the now. So how can I be present in the past?
It’s kind of like comparing Mum to Dad, it’s bullshit. So how can I be present when my automatic default is a comparison machine?
I hate that my machinery needs to judge and compare so I can feel better about myself. It makes me tired and I need all my good energy, I have no time to waste it on crap like that. Everything that you compare in the present, makes you block out the past.
You say it takes something! That’s because your machinery doesn’t want you or me to be present, it wants us to live in the past, dwelling on our fucked up stories to sabotage our future life. The problem is, we think we have a choice. Sorry… bad news, we have no choice, we are in the trap. The screen of our minds is on rewind and there is nothing we can do but accept and acknowledge it.
Writer: Rohan Merry
Editor: Ben Roberts